Monday, January 27, 2014

what's it all about, Alfie?

Alfred Lyle is almost 2 weeks old and I can't believe it! Everyday I feel like I just need to keep staring at him to make sure he's real. I make sure to look at his hands, his toes, his back hair, kiss his noes, tickle his ear...all to get my daily fix. He sure is precious. 

I've gotten a few questions about his name, so I thought I would share a bit about why we chose it. His middle name Lyle is Addison's grandpas name. We have had the opportunity to live with Lyle twice during our married life and are great friends. He is the only surviving grandpa between Addison and I, and to say we adore him would be an understatement. We love everything Lyle stands for. We lie his sense of humor, his endurance, and most of all his testimony. We have always known we were going to have the name "Lyle" somewhere in our children's names.

As far as Alfred goes, I first heard the name at work in the grotto! I got to meet a lot of kids with my fishy friend, and a lot of the time I was shopping for names! I met a little sweet British girl named Alfie when I was a couple months pregnant and didn't know if I was having a boy or girl yet. I totally fell in love with it-especially in a British accent.

We loved the name Freddy from the beginning. My grandpas name was Fred, so the name holds a certain fondness for me. I wasn't in love with the name Frederick, though. So when I suggested the name Alfred to Addison, it was the best of both worlds. 

The more we looked into the name, the more we fell in love with it! It quite literally means leader of the elves. Being a Lord of the Rings fan, I obviously had no issues with this. We also found this song from the 1970's film, Alfie (which is terrible btw, don't watch it.) But the song and the message are marvelous. 
"What's it all about, alfie?

Is it just for the moment we live?
What's it all about when you sort it out, alfie?
Are we meant to take more than we give
Or are we meant to be kind?
And if only fools are kind, alfie,
Then I guess it's wise to be cruel.
And if life belongs only to the strong, alfie,
What will you lend on an old golden rule?
As sure as I believe there's a heaven above, alfie,
I know there's something much more,
Something even non-believers can believe in.
I believe in love, alfie.
Without true love we just exist, alfie.
Until you find the love you've missed you're nothing, alfie.
When you walk let your heart lead the way
And you'll find love any day, alfie, alfie."

We've decided this is kind of his ballad for life. We hope our kids know that it's important to be kind, to give back, and lead with your heart.

Saturday, January 25, 2014

sweet little nothings.

The first few days of new baby are such a blur. I knew they would be. So I took a second in the hospital when Alfie was sleeping on my chest to write down some details I hope I never forget:
  • he's got great hearing-jumps at everything!
  • always eats with his pinky up 
  • strong jaw
  • his hands often look like he's conducting an orchestra
  • his high whimper cry!
  • his looooong nails and wrinkly hands-like dad
  •  his dark brown hair
  •  glossy purple eyes
  •  his top lip forms a V! he sucks in his bottom lip. and his STRONG grip-all the nurses and pediatricians commented on it!
  • long purple dry feet
  •  Gpa Lyle look alike! even got his back hair!
  • Addi combing his hair and making a part
 Pictures taken by the oh so talented

Monday, January 20, 2014

a labor of love.

today is our sons due date, but much to his mother's delight, he decided to show up 5 days early! honestly, the timing could not have been better if i had planned it out myself. and i know that it was all The Lord's doing. the entire week before i was in agony. acid reflux set in hard core, I had so many sleepless nights, pinched nerves, a 3rd kidney infection...etc. it was the worst week of my entire pregnancy, and as much as I wanted the baby to be here to end my pain, I kept praying it away because I knew I wouldn't have the strength to give birth yet! I had an awesome day on Monday, felt better than I had in weeks, we picked up my mom from the airport at midnight that night, and then I had the BEST nights' rest I'd had in weeks! Tuesday morning, I woke up with steady labor contractions. what. are. the. odds.

I knew these contractions were different than what I'd felt before. and they were 5-15 minutes apart. I had an ultrasound scheduled that morning, so i went in and let them know and they checked me really quickly just in case! the ultrasound tech could not even get far enough down to get a measurement of his head because he was sitting sooooo low, haha! she estimated an 8 lbs 6 oz baby! whew! I was dilated to a 2 now, and my cervix was very soft. she said i wouldn't make it to the weekend. so we went home and got to work! after 3 looong walks, a trip to Panera, and lots of stopping to catch my breath, we left to the hospital at 7 PM :)

I walked into the hospital, refused a wheelchair ;) i'm hardcore like that. then I told them I wanted a natural childbirth. I'm really hardcore. I was dilated to a 4 at that point and because I wanted to go natural, they didn't admit me quite yet, and sent me off walking to get further along. I changed in the bathroom, came out, sat down, and pop! my water broke! YES! i dunno what it is, but i really wanted to feel my water break. I guess I felt like that would make it more real? like there was no turning back after that, and I was truly in labor.

I was admitted and the contractions got a lot harder and longer after that. at 9:30 I was dilated to a 6 and opted for that lovely epidural. and it was the bomb. seriously. by the time i got it, i was shaking so bad from contractions i could barely hold still for them to put the epidural in right! i was pretty proud at how far i made it. once i got the epidural i was checked every few hours. i watched "the hobbit" and took a few naps. i progressed so steadily that i never had to have pitocin-which i was super grateful for. honestly, everything had been so calm and relaxed up to this point, i couldn't have asked for a better labor. i was so at peace. at about 3 AM i started to get a hot spot in my epidural, but i was fully dilated, so we just decided it was a good thing to be able to feel when the contractions were coming to help me know when to push. after 2 hours of pushing, things started to get a bit hairy :( baby was stuck and couldn't quite make the turn around my low pelvic bone. so my hours of pushing really weren't getting me anywhere. they set up a mirror for me to see the baby's head, complete with full head of hair to get me motivated. there was talk about vacuums and C-sections, which freaked me out, but in the end, once the doctor came in and really got me re-motivated, sweet Alfred Lyle was born at 6:12 AM. after a 23 hour labor, i was so relieved! it was the most physically exhausting thing I've ever done in my life. i've never been so aware of my weaknesses, and in awe of my strength. what an odd combination. i had 2 episiotomies and finally had a level 4 tear :( but I am grateful it didn't come to a C-section.

Addison cut the cord, and they placed that beautiful, purple, rubbery, body on my chest. i just bawled. Little Alfie cried for a few breaths and then calmed right down in my arms. he was wide eyed and staring at me. he got a strong grip on my finger and wouldn't let go! his long fingers kept nestling under my chin and in my neck, and he was drooling everywhere! his poor squished head was pretty misshapen and red. the nurses did everything right there, he didn't leave my arms for a good hour before they actually measured him and gave him shots. he was 8lbs even and 20 3/4 inches long. such a healthy size!

the next few hours are a deliriously blissful blur.

 pretending to have a contracion...
 rub the contraction awayyyyyy!
 daddys first hold.
 gmas first hold.
 his favorite spot/his first manicure-thanks gma!

Friday, January 10, 2014

maternity photoshoot.

a few weeks back, my incredibly talented "sister" took these photos and I could not be more pleased with them. I'm so glad i documented this time in our lives. thank you Kristy at! here are a few of my favorites.